I barely get on the interent anymore. Well, not as much as I used to. And I have an actual diary, so I just forget to write. Plus, no one reads this anyways. I only actually type a lot when I've got a holiday, a long one.

I talked to Christina last night for aobut 3 hours. It was crazy. We laughed, we cried [we're such girls], and we got the fuzzy parts of our friendship cleared up, which is good. I'm already feeling better about us being friends while she's at a different school. I'm understanding more aobut what's going on with the both of us.

I saw Finding Neverland yesterday and that movie is amazing! It deserves an Academy. But it was really good.

I bought Ryan Adams "Love is Hell" CD. I love "Wonderwall", that's why I bought the CD. Ever since Thursday, I've been wanting it really bad.

Kenny sang it at the senior show, I kinda think he sings it better, but Ryan'll do. The senior show was really hilarious. They did a "Napoleon Dynamite" skit which was excellent. David was doing the dance scene and it was so hilarious.

I found out the Baylor likes me a lot, and I feel bad b/c I don't like him the way he wants me to. And I know I can't help the way he feels or the way I feel, but I know how he feels. I mean, I did the same thing to someone over and over again last year.

All in all...this week was way better than last week.

Ugh. I hate makin' titles for these things, so if they come out stupid, then you know why.


Friday- Diana and I went to go see 'In Good Company' and it was really good. Topher was so cute and funny, but we didn't like the ending a whole bunch, but it was worth it.

Yesterday was honestly the best day of this week so far. I was just hanging around, wtahcing Tv and movies which always makes me feel better. Christina and Stefanie stopped by b/c they were on their way to Wal-mart. So we sat around my room for about 15 minutes, then I got dressed and we went to Wal-mart.

We got shirts, tanks and boxers. Then we went to the toy section and heard the creepiest laugh come out of a Care Bear, so we ran the other way. OMG! We went to look at the fishies and so then for some random reason we decided to get fish! It was crazy.

I got an orange one, Christina got a gray and black one, and Stef got a orange and black one. It was so funny. We're makin' it a contest to see who's can live the longest. Me and Stef were like, "They're gonna die tomorrow..." but I'd laugh if they lived forever. Hah :P

My fishes name was Chuck yesterday, but I dunno what it'll be today, or tomorrow, if he lives that long. Haha. That's a horrible thing to do...make it a contest to see who's fish can live the longest! Hah!

So then, we got home and my mom was like "Oh God...you got a fish..." It was funny. We dropped Chris and Stef at Stef's house and I got some fish food there. We were all supposed to meet up at the movies, but they'd already gone in and when I got there it was sold out... :(

I was kinda pissed b/c they basically ditched me, and b/c I had to wait in the cold, but I got over it.

I came home, watched 10th Kingdom [wow, what a nerd!] and just hung around. Then SNL with the Killers and Topher Grace came on and it made me happy. :D Two people that I love on one show...it was brilliant. I love them!

So basically, all-in-all... it was a good day. :lol:

1. YOUR PORN STAR NAME (Name of first pet / First street you lived on):
Fox Concord

2. YOUR MOVIE STAR NAME (Name of your favorite snack food / Grandfather's first name): Pretzel Hal

3. YOUR FASHION DESIGNER NAME (First word you see on your left / Favorite restaurant):
Webster Italianni

4. EXOTIC FOREIGNER ALIAS (Favorite Spice / Last Foreign Vacation Spot):
Salt Pepper None

5. SOCIALITE ALIAS (Silliest Childhood Nickname / Town Where You First Partied):
Embo Bimbo Euless

6. ICON ALIAS (Something Sweet Within Sight / Any Liquid in Your Kitchen):
Jaw Breaker Kool-Aid

7. DETECTIVE ALIAS (Favorite Baby Animal / Where You Went to High School): Wombat Bell

8. BARFLY ALIAS (Last Snack Food You Ate / Your Favorite Alcoholic Drink):  Jolly Rancher Non alci

9. SOAP OPERA ALIAS (Middle Name / Street Where You Live):
Elise Concord

It's sorta snowing. Or was.

It's crazy. I mean, we never get snow and if we do it's never in December.

So yeah. The only reason this sucks for me is b/c I don't have a coat and I'm sick, so I can't really go outside and play in it.:cry:

I'm so ready for Christmas! The anticipation is KILLING me! I already now what I've got too, but I just wanna open presents!

Well this one was a quickie. I might delete it later. So bye.

+ Basics +

Are you emotional: I dunno. I guess, I don’t wanna be though.
Do songs make you cry? If so, name a few: Uhhh no.
What about movies: Eh. Sometimes. I don’t ball my flippin’ eyes out though.
What emotion do you usually feel: In between things. Angry, sad, happy, etc.

+ Sadness +

What does it take to make you cry your heart out: Liars and losing people. Getting really angry.
How many times have you done that: 3 or 4 times.
Where do you cry: In my room or the shower.
Do you hate crying: Yeah.
Do you like it when others cry: No, it scares me.
Do you think tears make eyes look pretty: I dunno. They show good emotions and feelings and have a romantic side to them but when your eyes are all red and puffy it gets kinda creepy.
Who looks good when they cry: I have no idea.
How else do you express sadness: Writing poems, writing in my journal, listen to slower, sadder music.
Are you sad all the time: Nope.

+ Anger +

What does it take to make you mad: Liars and people leaving, along with bitches and betrayers. People who bug me.
What do you do when you're angry: Get really pissy and write a lot and say mean things.
How short is your temper: I dunno. It depends. If I’m already pissed, it’s short. If I’m ok, it’ll take a smidge longer.
How long does it take you to calm down: I dunno. I calm down when they leave me alone.
What's the worst thing you've done when you were mad: Probably screamed or something.
Do you freak out when others are angry: When they’re mad at me.
Has anyone ever recommended anger management to you: Nope.
What's the worst thing someone's done to make you mad: Made fun of me, made me feel bad about what I think, made me feel bad about what I’ve said, when people accuse me and others I love of bullshit.
Do you anger people: Haha, bet I do.

+ Joy +

How often are you happy: Very often.
What makes you happy: Music, driving, swinging, hanging out with friends.
What do you do when you're happy: Have fun, I’m in a better mood, laugh, smile…stuff like that.
Do happy people make you mad: Sometimes I guess.
What's the worst thing someone can do while they're happy: Be annoying. Or think they’re doing something funny, but it’s not. SO yeah, annoying.
Ever been so happy you were dying to tell everyone: Yup.
Ever been so happy you cried: No, just b/c I was laughing so much.
Do you smile a lot: Not really.
Kiss people a lot: What the hell kinda question is that!?
Who really makes you happy: My friends, family, and music.
Do you like doing things for people when you're happy: I guess.

+ Fear +

What do you do when you're scared: Hold onto something really tightly.
What scares you: Clowns, dolls, dummies, things that make freaky sounds at night, windows and mirrors at night.
Do you like scaring people:  Not really. Just a light ‘boo’ or something. I don’t wanna get it done back to me.
Do you like the trill of being frightened: Eh. Sometimes, but mostly no.
Does fear accompany anger in your case: Hmm…I dunno. I guess.
Ever been so scared you couldn't breathe: Yeah.
How often do you panic: I guess. But not major stuff. Just when it’s crowded.
What's the one thing that scared you more than anything else EVER : I dunno. When I probably heard a freaky noise. Or when we were watching Texas Chainsaw Massacre or when I was having hallucinations.
What do you do to calm your nerves: Watch a happy move, or think about happy things.
Do rollercoasters scare you: I haven’t ridden one, but I guess that might be the case…

+ The strongest emotion +

What song never fails to get your strongest emotions going: That’s a tough one. I feel all the emotions in all the songs.
Movie: No idea.
Commericial: I have no idea.
Person: No one really.
Thing: Remebering things.
Sight: Anything mean or sad.
Sound: Screaming
Food: Subway, Chinese, Italian, good stuff.
Thing you're not looking forward to/want: Going back to school without Christina and Conformation class.

+ What do you do +

When the emotion sucks: Write or listen to music. Just lay there.
When the emotion rocks: Jump up and down, go crazy, run all over, dance, smile a lot. This usually occurs when music is on.
When there's no emotion: I lay around, watch TV or sleep.

+ Would you rather +

Never feel again: Sometimes.
Feel loneliness or anger for the rest of your life: I can’t say. I hate to be angry and mean but being alone would get boring after a while.
Be happy forever and never experience bad times: Yeah.
Cause misery: No.
Feel misery: I don’t wanna feel it, but I know it’s inevitable.
Be alone: I think I could handle that.
Be with everyone you know: Yeah.

+ Who +

IF I WERE SURVEY

if i were a month i would be:  March or December

if i were a day of the week i would be:  Friday or Saturday

if i were a time of day i would be: Night

if i were a planet i would be: Mercury- cuz it’s a cool name, Jupiter- b/c it’s big and fun, Pluto-b/c it’s the darkest, coldest and it’s just cool.

if i were a sea animal i would be: Oh… an Orca.

if i were a direction i would be: I have no idea. Right?

if i were a piece of furniture i would be: I dunno. A huge loveseat or couch that you can sink into.

if i were a sin i would be: Murder?

if i were a historical figure i would be: Martin Luther King Jr.

if i were a liquid i would be: Hm…water? Mountain Dew? Mercury?

if i were a tree i would be: Red and orange, the leaves I mean.

if i were a flower/plant i would be: Hibiscus? Some Hawaiian/exotic one…

if i were a kind of weather i would be: Spring-ish or Fall-ish.

if i were a musical instrument i would be: Guitar or drums.

if i were an animal i would be: A wombat or a kangaroo. Or a giraffe, elephant, zebra…I dunno. Whatever I feel like.

if i were a color i would be: Deep dark blue.

if i were a vegetable i would be: Spinach, tomato or celery.

if i were a sound i would be: Somehting soothing. Like rain or a light waterfall.

if i were an element i would be: One of coolly named ones.

if i were a car i would be: Mini Cooper!

if i were a movie i would be directed by: anyone but Quentin Tarantino

if i were a book i would be written by: not a shitty author. Maybe J.K. Rowling, or someone fun.

if i were a food i would be: I have no idea, I eat everything.

if i were a place i would be: A beach or somewhere quiet.

if i were a material i would be: uhh….

if i were a taste i would be: I have no idea.

if were a scent i would be: Nice smelling…?

if i were a word i would be: Killer!

if i were an object i would be: a CD or a bed.

if i were a body part i would be: I guess eyes. I couldn’t not see things.